I Am So Grateful

I am so grateful.

I am on the precipice of experiencing something very special to me. I’m about to experience (am experiencing) a milestone in the red pill journey, a beautiful ascendance in consciousness, vibration, vitality, and bliss.

But these are just words. I really want to express this feeling I have, although words diminish it simply because words are mentalized when one reads them. I would much prefer to telepathically transfer this feeling into your body which would lend itself to a superior sense of knowing. Who knows - maybe someday this can happen! In the meantime, I will do my best.

I have many people to thank in supporting me in this rising, as I might call it. And several modalities, some of which I understand, others that still confound me. These include hypnotherapy, meditation, journaling, and kundalini yoga just to name a few.

Think of like this: all the daily things that ate away at my happiness and well-being are going away. Okay, they’re not going away, but the they are losing their electricity as if their influence over me has completely been diminished. And not that I ignore things that I experience. On the contrary - it’s that I once viewed them as one dimensional all my life, and now I can effortlessly see them from a higher perspective, almost like I can see a lesson that used to take years to unfold, now becoming evident in real time.

And it’s not only that, but it’s physical, too. As in, a physical bliss. A feeling of untouchability. Think of the hardest physical thing you’ve ever done… ie. giving birth, running a marathon, or anything else extremely physically strenuous pushing you to - and past your breaking point. Now focus on the feeling of you laying there after you’ve completed your physical task, enjoying all the endorphins, all the chemicals running through your body.

It’s like that… all the time. My body’s new homeostasis, its new normal.

It’s incredible! And really quite hard to describe. It’s something I’ve been pursuing without really knowing I was pursuing for the better part of 3 years, and in another sense, for the better part of the last 13 years less officially.

And I’m not finished trying to describe this thing… please allow me to continue! And top of what I’ve mentioned, add an unexplainable ability to channel and articulate higher wisdom, as if receiving information I KNOW and FEEL are true - the “reality of things” - even though I haven’t studied them to the depths one might deduce I would have had to have studied. It’s just there.

But in a way, I suppose I have studied these things. Not in the conventional book-study and test-taking we might associate with letters next to our names and degrees under our belts. No. Body wisdom. Having actually experienced the wisdom physically.

You can think of it like the difference between someone who writes a book about the perfect mechanics for running a marathon who has never run a marathon vs. someone who writes a book who has run countless marathons. The wisdom that will come through in the 2nd person’s book will contain information and detail not accessible to the first person’s book. And the interesting part is that most readers who would have never run a marathon would prefer book #2.

Yea. So information like that, just showing up in my mind… just being there. Only it’s about truth. Truth of how life is experienced. The deeper meaning behind things. The lessons behind the illusions. The actual marathon-running.

It’s just another level. It’s tempting to compare it to the old way of living/being by saying something like “it’s superior”, but it’s not even comparable.

It’s energetic. It’s unseen and unexplainable. Which is why I’m doing the best I can here!

And it’s so rewarding. So blissful. And going back to the beginning, I am so grateful.

I’m so proud of myself, too. I’ve been through the gauntlet. I’ve done so many hard things. I’ve changed who I was… who I thought I was. Rather, I did the hard work of stripping away as many unconscious ways I made myself safe or protected myself from being vulnerable… all the layers and layers of programming that stack up over a lifetime. Yea, I looked in the mirror. A LOT. And changed. A LOT. I kept showing up. For myself and for others. I’ve done the work - mind, body, and spirit. I’m not done - not by a long shot! In many ways, I’m only getting started.

But this celebration is necessary. This pause of recognition where I am and how far I’ve come. I’m so grateful. My nervous system is upgraded. I feel pure joy in my heart - unrestricted too. I feel a coming on of sustained and infinite bliss. I feel an indescribable freedom from the trials and tribulations of life - the struggle. It’s not real. The struggle is not real! Ha. The patterns. The unconscious behaviors. The celver and cunning hidden tricks of the programming mechanism called the ego.

It’s not that these things have disappeared - it’s that I have been encoded with the cipher. to see through the illusions. To not be drawn in by my reactivity. To be a master over my emotions. I have come to presence with the Greater Force behind it all. And God, does it feel good!

Thank you!!!